Who we are?

Every day starts with some expectations of others and some dreams of self, but every night ends with some dreams of others and some expectations from self.
Who we are in reality?
From the first day of our life to till the last breath of life, we are confused to understand who we are. The day we born, we come late but our relations come before us. We become sons and daughters of our parents, brothers and sisters of our siblings and so many other attached relations. No one has ever asked us about our will to make any new relation. All the relations are already decided for us without any choice. It is not about complaining but it is about the freedom to choose new relation of our own. One relation which we make by our own in this life is friends. Still all other predetermined relations feel unhappy about that.
Our life is a pre-designed plan of our relations if we try to change a piece of that plan, all others feel hurt.
Then who we are?
A planned baby or a mistake, a bless or a curse, a reason for joy or sorrow for someone. If we are taught to live our lives with our dreams and their expectations then why both get exchanged always. Why making ourselves happy doesn't make all others happy. Why it is termed as outrageous when we decide to do something of our own, why it is seen as outlawed when we try to chase our own dreams.
If we are the flowers of a garden and gardener wants to give us best possible care and protection, so that we can bloom at fullest. But when care starts suffocating, protection starts forbidding then we start dying rather blooming.
Love and care can be regressive if they blind the person who loves and can be dangerous for the person whom they love.
A beautiful bird could lose her sheen and voice when she will be caged on  the name of protection and care.
Love is not pure if it is not making the person you love free from your love, Care cannot be true if it is not giving space for growth to whom you care.
Most of the times intentions are pure but actions are mixed with possessiveness, jealousy and ego.
They stop realizing that they are no longer loving or caring us, but their ego.
Again Love dies because of ego.

Ek Lamhe me

It become intolerable now then he raised his voice again.

Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo salo ki bate,

Thod diya har sapno ko,

Chod diya is apne ko..

Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo salo ki bate,

Mita gayi wo lakire hatho se
hata gayi wo badal sapno ke
Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo salo ki bate,
Kissa ab ye mashhur hoga,
Dil thoda h ab toh dard jarur hoga..
Hogi numayis ab Isq ki,
Sareaam ab firse mohhabt badnam hoga..
Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo us ahsash ko
Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo hr aadhure-pure jajbat ko
Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo mujhe,mere pyar ko..
Ek lamhe me hi ab ji li maine jindgiya kai,
Ek lamhe me hi ab humne pa li hr khushiya nai,
Ek lamhe me hi ab ho gayi sari aarzoo puri,
Ek lamhe me ab rakha kya h jina kya jab jindgi lage na
Ek lamhe sa bhi Jaroori .
Ek lamhe me hi bhul gayi wo salo ki bate.

Khud se Khud me kho gaye

"Naraj bhi hum nahi kisi se, na hi khafa h
ye to badale waqt ki saja h, jo ab hum juda h."

Na thi ummid ki kuch aisa hoga,
Na thi koi khwahish ki kuch aisa ho..
Dekar hath apna kisi gair, ko apna kaha tha.,
Pal bhar me wo kar de ge gair,
kuch aisa ho.
Thi Khwahish ki wo hume bulayege bhid se,
Par kho dege hume  bhid me,
kuch aisa hoga..

Rage

The rage

Humans are such weak creatures, they can't control their emotions from coming out. Sometimes, it is in action or it will be in words. Everything can have an impact on our thoughts, or say everyone affects our way of thinking.

It has been years, to  raise voice over someone known or unknown. Many things get broken, many people irritated a lot, serval time situations get out of control, still a customary smile was there for all. Now when it pierced deep down inside, then a sleeping, suppressed, a dormant demon of ego raised his voice over someone whom he loved most. It was all of a sudden but it was inevitable.
What made him so angry..?? The question is obvious. So the answer should be reasonable. Either the person or the situation has gone out of control. "You can't control a person so the situation would be the answer".
If a person is not so important then the situation can't be out of control, because irrespective of a person's feeling every situation can be handled.
From the beginning of this present situation (which has come upon now) it was known when it will come, things would be difficult.
Rage is something like a volcanic eruption of anger and frustration. When a volcano bursts or opens itself with a blast of hot lava, its inner core comes out and  burns everything live or dead to ashes. Rage is a burst of anger which burns feelings, relations and everything which made you happy once.

Har waqt kuch ajeeb raha

Har waqt kuch ajeeb raha,

Kabhi koi pas to, kabhi kanhi door raha,

Mil ke bhi milte na the wo

jinka na milna bhi ajeeb raha..

Khush toh ab bhi h

khushi to tab bhi thi

ek dussre k liye apnapan ye ajeeb raha..

Door se ab hans liya karte h

Jinki hansi k liye door tak jaya karte the

Ye anjanapan bhi ab ajeeb raha.

Duaao me jise mangte the

Wo ab khush rahe ye ab duaa rahi

Badale waqt k sath, ye duaa bhi ajeeb rahi..

Dekh ke tasvir ab muskurahat niklti h

kabhi wo tasvir hi muskurahat rahi..

Mil jayege fir kanhi, yunhi raho me

muskurate hue puch lege haal ek dussre ka.

najre churake dekhege sath kaun aaya h

milte h fir kabhi, kah ke chal dege musukarte hue 

Ye haal-a-byan bhi kuch ajeeb raha..

Do you feel that !

Words are not enough to say what do I feel, my face won't say anything, my smile may hide my happiness, my emotions may not be seen. Maybe I am not worthy, maybe I am so naive to all, maybe I am a stranger to you, may be all the things I say look unreal, maybe nothing new I have done, maybe I have been a dream only.
Still I feel

Love the way you Love me 

Ask yourself

Everything can't be defined, if you feel my presence n miss me in my absence., if you wish to be with me, if you can trust me, if you think i can hold your hand in any conditions, if you know "I can understand your silence then just close ur eyes n

                                                                ask your self not me what you want.

I care for You

na koi naam mera, na koi pata.. hu koi aapna ya hu koi  sapna,,hu koi tere paas ka ya hu koi tere ahsas ka..hu na  saya tera na hu tere sath ka..phir bhi hu tere liye tere khash ka..

A relation is defined or undefined doesn't matter if you care for the name of the relation then don't care how it comes or if you care to care then no matter what name it gives to you.

Only thing I wish you to Know "I Do Care for You"